Not knowing…

i was happy before

in the ignorance of not knowing
i was living without you

but now
you are more present
in your absence
than any of the things around me
that i can touch with certainty
at any time

the emptiness left by the imprint of your soul
has become the shape in which
i live my life.

Another wonderful poem from Cheryl at hold this space.

I love her stuff because it works on so many different levels.

This poem could be about the precious relationship/friendship that shattered… the death of a loved one… separation from family or friends. Their presence lingers… their influence still shaping the present and the future.

It also has echoes of R.S. Thomas and Via Negativa (Negative Theology). (If you read my old blog you will know how much I love Thomas’s poetry). Thomas speaks of a God who is wholly present in his absence, knowable in his hiddenness and who speaks in silence.

He is “the darkness between stars”.

We follow “the echoes…the footprints he has just left…”


Why no! I never thought other than
That God is that great absence
In our lives, the empty silence
Within, the place where we go
Seeking, not in hope to
Arrive or find. He keeps the interstices
In our knowledge, the darkness
Between stars. His are the echoes
We follow, the footprints he has just
Left. We put our hands in
His side hoping to find
It warm. We look at people
And places as though he had looked
At them, too; but miss the reflection

Via Negativa (R.S. Thomas)

Picture is ‘tiptoe through the shallows’ by Mike Lockie on Flickr

A thin line between…

here where every step
triggers a memory
of that time once before
where i said yes
in spite of the certainty of failure

[and fail i did]

here where every step
reminds me of the paper thin
line on which i walk
where neither side
on which i might fall
holds any chance of survival

here i take a breath
of the air that’s filled only with the question
of faith

and say yes


A wonderful piece from Cheryl at hold this space .

It works for me on so many levels.

It reminds me of “thin” lines I have walked in the past… through projects that failed…jobs that frustrated… difficult decisions that had to be made… all those times when I was caught between a rock and a hard place.

Yet this piece is full of hope…  and there is a challenge to move forward in faith even when it seems as if failure is inevitable.

Will you say “yes anyway” to the impossible… the risky… to the thing that scares you most in this moment?

I dare you to “take a breath” and a step of faith towards the one who is worthy of our trust.

Picture is ‘cut off by the tide’ by Jonny Baker on Flickr